Kim Jung-hwa Oh-yeol "I waited for my parents' divorce at 18... but I lost touch" ('Gold Counselor')
Actor Kim Jung-hwa has been healed from a long-standing wound.
Channel A 'Oh Eun-young's Gold Counseling Center', which was broadcast on the 19th, featured Actor Kim Jung-hwa, a 22-year-old actress who transformed from a high-teen star to a new styler in the 2000s.
Kim Jung-hwa made his debut at the age of 18 and told about the story of having to jump into a harsh livelihood and the slump he had during his prime. Also, Confessions were made to the parents' divorce and the long battle of cancer of the deceased Mother.
Kim Jung-hwa, who had a slump in his fifth year of debut, said, "I was sick because Mother had cancer by the time I had Sigi to find my life. I did cheMotherapy, but when I went to the test at dawn, I always went to pick me up. I thought it was a daughter, so I thought it was possible. " "At almost the last time, there was a time when Mother was not good enough. At that time, I had finished reading the new work, but I am really sorry that I had to move to the hospice right away, but I gave up the work that finished reading. I thought I had to be with my Mother at that time. "
Kim Jung-hwa, who happened to make his debut as an Actor through street casting at the age of 18. "I think I was lucky, but I thought I worked like a machine, not starting to plan and what direction to go. At first, it was strange and funny, but after four to five years, it was very difficult. "There was no friend who could share my mind only by seeing me as an entertainer. When I was asked in an interview at the time of my activity, I did not know anything about me, so I lived without knowing what I was happy about. "
Kim Jung-hwa later decided to have his own time, but Mother had a hard time starting his battle. "I wanted to see everything making me feel tough. In those days, there is no bright content such as 'I do not want to open my eyes tomorrow if I close my eyes tonight' and 'I want to disappear immediately'. "I even wanted to die," he said. "I went to the hospital and was tested. I was actually diagnosed with depression, and I took medicine, and I was insomnia. I do not think Sigi, who was the hardest in my life, was Sigi, who seemed gorgeous and good when others saw it. "
Kim Jung-hwa told the show of her childhood pain she had never spoken to anywhere, saying: "My parents had a lot of quarrels when I was a kid. My sister wandered and it was the cause of the fight, so my parents fought more. So I thought that I did not want to be a cause of the fight, "he said.
But my parents eventually gave Kim Jung-hwa a divorce in high school, and Kim Jung-hwa stayed with my father. "I came home one day and there was no Mother, but tomorrow I would come, but she did not come. I was hurt so much and I was resentful. My Mother loved us less, I really thought we were disturbing my Mother's life. "
Kim Jung-hwa, who said that her Mother contacted her sister but was shocked that she did not contact her, said, "My love for my Mother was great, but there was resentment in me." "I think I thought I had no place to rely on. I do not know if there is something that I do not want to remember. I think I deliberately forgot," she cried.
Oh Eun Young Doctorate said: "Memory that is so painful is hurt when you remember vividly. I can not bear it when the wound is touched, so I do not really erase it from Memory, but I put it deep in my heart. I do not consciously come up in everyday life, but it is not in fact not in Memory. "Parents should tell me when they go out or when they go out. Otherwise, the children are anxious. That is called organic anxiety. Kim Jung-hwa was in a big state, but there seems to have been organic anxiety. So when I met Mother a few years later, Kim Jung-hwa took care of Mother who needed care like a Mother. I think I should, but I do not think I will be abandoned again, I think I will be loved, and I feel like I am a valuable person. "
Oh Eun Young Doctorate said, "Mother and my father would have had a lot of reasons to be in charge. But when my youngest daughter turned 18, she seemed to have decided to leave. I think Mother went out when I thought that I could live a little while without me because I was a lot bigger now. "
Kim Jung-hwa, who was later to weigh Mother's heart, could not stop tears: "Love was so great, but there was resentment inside me and misunderstanding. But I think my Mother may have endured more because of my youngest daughter. I think that my Mother might have tried because of me to keep my Mother's place more, and I think she loved me a lot. I feel comforted because I want to be loved. "